My school week started out with a bang! Projects, deadlines, quizzes, assignments! Damn! All the pressures of school. I had no choice and I went on with my day. I almost fell asleep in Filipino again. That's one thing I will never do again. Slacking is not the answer. Haha! Whatever.

I found peace in the SDC room. I didn't go home immediately because I didn't want to. After giving my requirements for the UST application form, I just stayed in the room, talked with Ms. Rani and a couple of batchmates. I learned a lot during that session in the SDC room. No matter how smart you are, you're not 100% sure that you can get in the university of your dreams. There was one student who passed UP but failed in UST. Weird? Well yeah. It's up to you if you're going to pass it or not. It depends on your style, and your way of passing the entrance exams. If your destined to go to that school, then you will find yourself in that particular school the next year. Destiny has its way of doing things. I may be a skeptic, but I'm not your skeptic that dismisses everything related to these unexplainable phenomena. I don't believe in ghosts, but I believe in God. If God wants you to be in that particular school, then He will do something you won't notice for you to be in that school.

Call me weird if you will, but I find myself relaxed and content with myself when alone in a room, doing nothing but stare at the things around me. The walls surrounding me, noticing how intricate the painting is if there is one. I tend to notice the small things. I don't like crowds, and I don't like noise. I don't find myself even watching TV anymore! I can go on with my day without even touching the television set. Yes. It is physically possible for me to do that. Yet, here's the catch. I can go on without TV, but I can't go on without my PC and an internet connection. I'm a self-confessed internet addict. I don't know how I got to be this way, but it seems that everytime I sit down in front of our laptop here at home, I kinda feel relieved. Maybe it's my way of releasing stress. We are different. We have different ways of doing things. This is where the word unique does its job.

Peace and tranquility. The topic of this entry of mine. Why, you may ask? It makes me happy during those hard times. It makes me think. It makes me care about this damn world. It makes me know myself more.

Zen moments.

(thanks to Lawrence for that term. :P) Tuesday, July 26, 2005 at 5:57 PM